Picked up the courage

It's currently 5:05am in the morning and I got to wake up in 2 hours time to help me friends to shift house. Okay whatever. Imma just come back to sleep after that, but while typing this, I'm really really hungry. How? 

Just a short update. I will update a full post soon really. 

TADA. Life's has been ups and downs ever since i came over to Korea. Many many many things had happened to the people around me and deep in my heart, it hurts to see this. But I had been able to pull through all these is because of our Heavenly Father, always being there giving me all the strength that I need. Of course, many things had happened to me too. All sorts of people that I met,  I learned so much from it despite just being here for just 3 months. Thank you to those people who were always there for me all these while (I know I repeated it almost every post, but still, thank you guys). 

And I guess I've pulled through this hard hard hard hard hard thingy that is always on my mind, it's not easy but I did it definitely. Kinda glad about it. 

And looking back at myself, I never knew I would changed so much in just 3 months. 

Firstly, I'm getting more and more disciplined about myself in my own life, having a budget, writing down daily expenses, daily cleaning of my room, washing of my smelly clothes. All of these, I don't even do it in Singapore, yet here, i disciplined myself so much. 

Secondly, money. I didn't realize the importance of money till I'm here. The difference between spending money and earning money at the same time. I never feel so bad eating a expensive food in Singapore, but here, nah. Definitely I can't do that, it will just exceed my budget totally. 

Thirdly, spending time alone. For the first time in life, I do appreciate my time alone here. I got so much time for myself, and I start to reflect in my life. Of course many FIRSTs here that happened to me. I don't mind eating alone, I don't mind going to shopping or just roam around the town and shopping centre alone. If you know me, I used to hate being alone, I need people to be around me and I stick with people. But here, many times I don't mind doing things alone or I rather want to be alone, but of course, I didn't change yeah, I still can't stop talking to my friends, so therefore even I like being alone, I tends to cling to my friends via Whatsapp, skype and FaceTime. Sorry guys. I know I'm still quite a burden. HAHAHAHHA 

Lastly, thinking. Idk what is affecting me but last week down thing really affected me so much and I thought was I crazy? So finally I visited the clubs here. Frankly speaking, it was good, not that bad or rather not that fantastic either. People smoke inside and it's stink really badly esp our hairs.  So many things happen inside this small place whereby I feel so damn wrong and out of place here. Yes. Maybe there's a sense of satisfactory whereby eyes were on you (they really love foreigners here), but when they started to get prideful and start pulling you, the thought of it is just too wrong. It seem like foreigners are "easy" to them or rather girls seems like a "easy" thing to guys. The thought of it is just too...wrong? (Idk how to explain this) I'm so sorry if this offend you, but maybe this is just a one or two times feeling I really thought how sucky I am for a moment when things occur to me and my friends. (Maybe I was thinking too much, maybe that......

OKAY IMMA WAKE UP SOON IN 1,5h time OMG. 

HAVE A GOOD REST MY FRIENDS AND I PROMISE I WILL UPDATE SOON. (Okay, not promise but rather hopefully I try. It's a big word)

Stepping out of the comfort zone

Just a short update about my life in Korea. I've been really busy or rather packed everything, life is so far so good here, even though i do miss Singapore so much.

It's been nearly 3 months since I'm here.

Never in my life i thought i would be so brave to do this and choose this route, i do have my plans about my next step, so this is only the beginning, there's still a long way to go.

At first, i thought to myself that the chances of me getting in to language school might be really low because SNU website stated that they do go through strict selection etc.

I was really happy when i got the acceptance email from SNU LEI and i can't wait for my new life to even start.

But as days go closer, i thought : "Wow, how many days do i left? How many people i am going to miss when i'm in there?"

Yes maybe some of you might think 1 year is not a very long thing, at first i was thinking, it's just a year and everything will past by really quickly. But when days get closer, i thought to myself, "woah, how much is everything gonna change when i'm back after a year?"

Many of my close friends are going to US, UK, AUS to study, and it will be like 1-2 years things before i can even get to see them again. But luckily, thanks to the technology, we are able to talk through phone, whatsapp, skype etc. But being able to meet in real life, is way much better right? To the few of them, Gillian, Nelson, Nicole, Jasmine, Liew, Onggo, Jade and those that i miss out, take care and we will see each other soon yeah?

So let's move on, to anyone who plan to study over here or rather just overseas, please kindly open your options up for your lodging because you will never know how much this totally screwed your life. (It's still a very big problem here for me), so basically RESEARCH ON YOUR LODGING because you will never know that they school will give you your dormitory a not.

So for my case, it's really stupid (Sorry to say that), i applied for summer dormitory late (technically i graduated from polytechnic, and apparently they don't understand that i can only take my official certificate in 28 May, so they accept me late), so for this, i got to admit it's my fault for not calling them thinking that they understand my e-mail. So yeah, i stayed outside, move house twice just to make sure that i can save more money, but sorry to say that, staying outside regardless how small a room can be, dorm is still 3 times cheaper. Especially whereby i have my own budget to last myself in Korea for a year, so guys, have backup plans for your lodging. It just stress you up, too much. And not only that, on the Fall application, i applied at 12am sharp for Fall Dormitory and i got rejected because priority are given to the new student, (ironic part, they didn't give it to me when i'm a new student either), i so guess i got stay outside for another 3 months? (MY MONEY FLY REALLY :( ) I will try to call them later, so let's hope and pray. So guys, please have backup plans, find backups even if they confirm a space for you in your new lodging. I do have friends that want to move out because of their pervert neighbours, roommates or whatever. Do more research and ask the Native about where is more reasonable. Of course, if you are rich, all these is not a problem at all.

Just a word of advice for those who are intending to take up Korean Courses here. From what i know, many University's language school does not guarantee you lodging at all. There are cheaper options in some area especially for Yongsei student (Dorm is rather expensive in Yongsei), so many people tend to stay outside near Sincheon. But for SNU case, School dorm is the cheapest and the best especially if you funding yourself for your education fee here. If you are someone that is fine with really small rooms, you can go for Goshiwon(just google and you will see how is it), but if you prefer more of a freedom, you can go for one room studio whereby it can cost you 400,000won a month and with a deposit of 5,000,000won (5000USD) and you need to sign contract or 6months-1year. Honestly i do not recommend this unless you are very sure and you can predict your future very well (this is for language student, but if you are very sure you are studying your bachelor or masters here, you can sign). You will never know what will happen back at home (CHOI, but still....) so if you break the contract, there will be fine (idk how much though) or you got to find your friend's friend's friendsssssss to let them take over your room. & it's a tedious process really. AND BECAREFUL OF SCAMMERS. Many of my friends are being charged so high in their rental and deposit. So guys, please do really tons of research and the best, ask a student studying here or your Korean friends.

Okay move on, i finished raging over the lodging thingy. well other than the stupid lodging thing, EVERYTHING ELSE IS AWESOME HERE. I met tons and tons of new friends, Unni, Oppa, teachers and Singaporeans that helped me so much with my stay here. First term had officially ended last week, i did well for my examinations and it's holiday now. My friends came over and yay, everything is so awesome. Met up with Singaporeans staying in Korea from the national day event plan by Singapore's Embassy and Singapore Seoul Club on Sat and all i can say that they really understand us students here and offer to help us in many ways. That's something i'm really proud of being a Singaporean here. Thank you so much.

& our heavenly father, being there for us for EVBS camp for Sunday school 2 weeks ago. Everything goes so well because of his blessing. EVBS was really awesome. Thank you Pastor Megumi for giving me a chance to be part of this family, it just feel so different going to Sunday School after the camp. & today, 2 very sad news. Yes, people come and go in life, but even though i'm really really upset, but still, i am very happy for them! :) I will update a full post about EVBS and our last day of school they next few days when i have much more time! Till then...

& ohyes, thank you to the many of youssssssss in Singapore, my dear friends, thank you for all your concern, all your everyday text, all your everyday pictures, everyday skype and FT, sometimes i even thought to myself, do i deserve so much from you all? But still, i love you guysssssssss. Really really. It's gonna be 6am here and I AM GOING TO SLEEP SOON :) Good night