Appreciation

"Appreciation for each relationship in its entirety and the uniqueness of the moments that you share together — appreciation for the present."

Sound so chim, but seems so true. 

So basically I can't fall asleep on the bus back to Singapore, I shall do up a post. Yes. A post about appreciation. Because I can't express myself well (I said it like 10000x) , even in msg. Writing or blogging seems to be the best resort to do it. 

Recently, there's so much really sad stuff that happen to the world. Airplanes, bus, riots and even ship. When I read and watch more and more about the Ship incident, my heart hurt so much because it must be a moment of desperation when such things happen to you. And if im one of them that is inside there. What will I do? How desperate I will be, 

I remember in secondary 2/3, when I went to gopeng with the prefects, we were happily singing gy sch songs while standing on the lorry in a uphill kampung coming down for our mountain climbing activity and suddenly In a split second, the lorry break, overturn and we dropped into the river. If I'm not wrong, I'm the first few who drop in because I was being pulled out of the water after struggling for about a min. The water is pretty shallow but I can't even stand up because there is others and luggages (yes our luggages are all with us on the lorry) stacking on top of me and definitely someone is under me because my stomach is full with scratches. The moment I drop in, what I can remember is that I open my eyes and i was in the muddy water. I can't move at all. And one hand suddenly grab me and pull me up. 

But thank god that everyone is safe and the injuries wasn't that bad other than the driver and one of my fiend that was hurt pretty badly. And of course phones and passports were lost and my new phone spoiled Hahahha wtf. I remembered I cried pretty badly because I was really in shocked when I get back on land. The lorry behind us, which is another bunch of prefects, witness the whole accident and some ended up crying very badly too. I'm glad that mrs too didn't follow us on the lorry because she was pregnant that time. 

Thank god for watching over us. So thinking about it now. What if because of that, someone was dead, or I'm the one who is dead, definitely I will regret because I never once thank people properly for being in my life, tahaning all my nonsense rubbish and stubborn character. (I almost met with a fatal accident just now on the bus, almost, almost and I'm was wide awake), and the thoughts of this came to my mind. 

Thank you to you you you you and thousands of yous that god gave to me and leave a impact to me forever. Be it nursery teachers, church leaders, sch teachers, tuition teachers, classmates, band mates, Tchouk mates, swimming fiends, bball friends and a lot more and not forgetting my family. Yes. I have like brilliant memory that I remember a lot a lot of thing. Like who gave me what in my primary 6 bday all these, my cousin attempting to kill me with knife when he's young. Genius isn't it. HAHAHHAHA because of this, thinking about the past made me start smiling like a small girl. How how how fascinating must it for me last time. And be it who, thank you guys so much once again, thank you for not giving up on me and continue to be by my side. 

Even till now, so many of you all have the intention to fly over to visit me really touched me. At least that's the thoughts that count and if you can't do it, it's okay okay!  and I love you all okay. You all surely know that huiting can't survive well without you all. Def I will miss everything here like crazy. A month and 2 days more till I leave Sg and going for a brand new journey. There's still so much things that need to be done. Hostel visa and packing. HAHHAHHA. 

Once again thank you you you you you and many of yous. Def you know who you are because I do express my love for you all in a weirdo way because I'm shy okay. Please continue to be with me. Even though it sound really shameless, I do need you all to be by side when I'm there. And def, if you need me, I will be try to be back to be with you. For this I promise. 

OKAY BYE I LOVE YOU FIRENDS, FAMILY AND OF COURSE DADDY GOD 🙆 Till then.... 

Sorry that I post so many of my shameless photos but still 🙆🙆🙆🙆🙆okay. 

Early in the morning when 3 person decide to give you attitude, all you could do is to shut up and use your phone and mastered IDGAF because it's seems too weird and funny at the same time. They connect well together. Again till then. 3 days away from reality before I fly to Korea. My last trip before I go Korea. 

Really sorry about yesterday. I was just as insensitive too. 

Change

Even myself was so amazed by how much I grown and how much I start to care about people. To a point I ask myself in the mirror, since when huiting became an angel that care so much about people. I had changed. 

It's pretty fcuk up that your brain and heart don't work well together, both trying to overcome and see who will win eventually. The feeling is pretty fcuk up. But I'm glad that I did it. To overcome this and follow the brain instead. 

Because that's the best for the people around you. You can't be a burden to people you do really care. 

 

Grown up.

Because i know you would read it, thank you for being so honest, settling this in a really cool way. I'm glad that we are finally able to talk this out, and i'm sorry if i did lead you. I'm really really grateful for this friendship of ours, and we did it really cooly, in our own ways and i hope this would never change, forever. At least we must maintain our coolness. To settle things in a really cool and good way. You did well! :)

Thank you so much for what you had done for me! & i believe this will continue right? Because it really feel good to have someone to buy food to your house. But whatever case, thank you very my my dear friend. You are indeed someone really special to me. (Please eat regularly, if you see this, thanks)

I will never forget about the car, never. But whatever the case, thank you very much still :)

because we are growing up, and this is how we grow up.

Magical day.

Firstly, I thank got for bringing me magical people to my life. And father, continue to be beside me forever and ever. 

And the moment I decided to step in to service. I knew I knew I would end up like this. 

At least at least I feel so assured after the confessions and my heart feel safe and secured after the prayers. I thank god for it. For once again, being there, for me, times like this. It's not easy, but thank you father for letting me to know that you are forever there, letting me to lean on. Letting so many magical people to come to my life protecting and watch over me.

I have a really good Easter service at CHC on a Sunday morning. And really the performance and drama was amazingly put up by the volunteers. 

Times like this. Thank you for standing beside me once again. 

Updated

HI CHEEPS. I just updated cus you ask me to. K BYE. EAT WELL.

Accepted

Yes, I got accepted.

On the 9th of April, after all the hassle that i go through to call them and email them,

Yes, i'm going to Seoul National University LEI to continue something i really like. Korean Language.
And this is serious because i need to do well after spending so much money on it.

Because everyone is calling me stupid for choosing this route, but trust me, please at least believe i'm not going there to play play only. & i will be back for university next year. Yes, i will be back.

So i just like submitted like $3.9k for the school fees only because i need to apply d-4 Visa and i need it to settle ASAP :(

The school system sucks, i need to pay like a lot of extra to the bank because i did a wire transfer directly to their bank.

Yes, it's my mum money, but i'm definitely paying back, but slowly, you can't expect me to pay all at a goal right.

& definitely i will miss everything here. Literally everything and anything.

Maybe... let fate decide what we will be.

I will leave everything in God hands. & i believe he would want me to learn from it.

Seeing the calendars and counting the dates. It seem like there's still plenty of time left, but deep inside, i secretly hope everything slow time. At least till then. This is too fast :( & i really can't bear to let go. 

Start of something new.

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart (feel in my heart)
The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter (brighter)
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before 
But now it's easy to see

It's the start 
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart

That it's the start 
Of something new
It feels so right (so right)
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Start of something new
The start of something new

So I'm recently so into HSM songs again. 

This photo too funny liao la 😂

Have a great day. 

Blessed

Times like this, I do feel very blessed. Really blessed. 

Yet another new day ahead

7 April 2014

I recieve the email. Thinking that I can proceed with all the visa and application etc. but turn out. They want my certificate again. But I can only recieved it by the end of May. So I called them and they say I can send in final transcript along with the the school letter and I got to go down to Sp to get the letter. Super ley chey sia. 

And the whole process is nervous and tiring because they don't get what I'm saying in the email so I call them instead. Actually is they never reply to my question. The guy who picked up the phone panicked because I speak so fast just than I realized I should slow down for him. 

Okay so I'm on the way to school now to take the letter. And I need come back one day again to get my testimonial too. And the result will be announced next mon. 

So my dearest sister just came back from the states yesterday after 3 weeks. 3 weeks seem so fast and I'm very sure she's is very broke duh. Because she dig every single cents from her own pocket. And of course. Our love is so strong that she obviously get me shirts and shoe. 😂😂😂😂😂 WTS. 

it's been long since I talk nonsense with mummy already. I told her how much I love our relationship how much I love to show the world that we have a family friend relationship. Yes. If you know me well. I love my family I love god i love my friends. Yes 3 things. That's all. Of course I look food and sleep too. I glad god had given me these awesome things in life so far. My life had been really smooth since young thanks to my parents. And my most adorable Ahma I'm grateful for. 

Now the thing is health and money. I still have one more stage in life where I still need to get money from my parents. I'm working hard now for my future so that I can repay them ASAP. Now is that I just hope everytime can be healthy. Mummy is always a perfect example to follow in life. As much as she like shoes and bags. She's a woman that is very thrifty at everything. And she's a loaded mum who is really really wise. Oh and my sister. All my friends know her. How proud I am as her sister. Actually I'm really proud of her you see. From a blur sotong that the whole world look down to such a hardworking and smart girl. Still remember how much she got to suffer from childish ppl way back. But Ohwells it's the past and we all had learn to move. I'm glad she's doing very well in sp. At least she found out what she wants to do in life. That's all that enough. And she's is another loaded one who saves spend and save like crazy. She's used to be richer than me of course before she go to states. But now. I'm the richer one. 

Hopefully everything will be so smooth for me. I need the application to be approve. I need to go there this year and do what I want and love. At least for a year. And I will be back and hopefully SIT please reopen the course. I need you so badly. 

And for my fiends. THANKYOU for being there for me to listen to my shyt nonstop and give me so much advice. Thank you for letting me to realize how a human being can be so awesome and obviously leading me to become a better person. 

Side note. It really feel so good to have someone to go all the way out for you. Do whatever to make you happier. And really thank you you. 

Thank you god for giving me the greatest people in my life.

7 April is coming soon. Yes my fate for the future. 2014 had been a really good year. Compromising had become a very big word here. 2014. Changes in almost everyone life. Uni, Poly, Army, Overseas. For me, let just let fate decide. Let's just ignore this. And let the picture do talking. I thank god for giving me the best people in my life that I could ever ask for. Without  them, I would not be what I am. Father, thank you so much. Continue to look over them and protect them. 

So once again. Because I can't express myself a lot.... Maybe this might be another way. Thank you to you people who made me who I am today. 

Thank you so much for sending this people to me to make my life filled with all sorts of colours.